Why is it that when you’ve given every bit of effort and thought you’ve done the everything right, no one notices. Yet when you’ve done one thing that you really regret doing, no one forgets? It’s just a single thing versus all your efforts and all the right things you did. One thing can ruin everything. One thing. Fuck that.
I quite despise what I’m becoming and detest how my life is turning
Naiintindihan ko lahat. Ako pinakamatanda yet I act like the baby. I need to act my age, step up, man up, and be the kuya that I’m supposed to be. Bawal maging mahina. Bawal maging duwag. Kailangan maging understanding at maging patas sa mga judgment at decisions na gagawin. At kailangang harapin ang damn consequences.
How can I even do that?
It seems that whatever I do, I always end up disappointing and hurting the most important people in my life.
It pains me to know that I’m that kind of person. I do things that I’m not aware of. I’m stupid to ever think of you that way. Sorry for ever hurting you. Sorry for ever doubting you. I’m stupid and I know that. I hate myself for that. I really do regret doing that to you. I’m sorry. 😢😢😢
I’ve done things I’ll never be proud of, and this one tops it all. Fuck.
The last thing I wanna do is hurt you, yet somehow I’ve managed to